my first automotized-abacus
was purchased a scant 7 years ago
now they call them computers
c3pu's
...a mother bored in a tower

dont ask me, man!
i just pressed her buttons
[...and now im divorced...(shrug)]
compared to most "surfers"
my web is small

i'm not riding the
technology-forward cutting-edge wave
my mother [god bless her heart]
is a typewriter beside my word processor
we had an email tutorial today at her local library
man oh man, cool
well, first of all any time spent with mom
is a blessing
secondly, now its my turn to teach

mom showed me the ropes
by undaunted and dedicated example
[yes ladies and germs this here is a man that
will "seek out the rarest orchid" for his mom]
unflappable
objective
compassionate
faithful
and good humoured

mom has been avoiding techo-savy
since the advent of the push button phone
jeez louise, she only just nixed her "party-line"
and thats not a cash-cow porno 900 number

whoa - focus buddy - anyhoo

pertinent info

for the last 2 years i have been passing
on family-gathers
i'm avoiding my [expletive fucking deleted =)] father
LONG STORY - SAME OLD SHIT
me bros and me still beers 'n wings
and my sis lives fah-fah-away [ =( ] so thats mute
but my mother, my mom
thats the craw in my throat...the rub
sure we lunch regularily
but we dont share free association
and thats by my own decision [gulp, long sigh]

this is what im trying to say:
enuring me mom to email is far from altruistic
its actually self serving
i miss my mom
and need an alternate form of communication


anyhoo

so, there we are at the local lib"ary" (ww woody)
doing email on a computer!!!!
i gladly guide my email emancipated mom
thru the arduous first steps
of her techno-trip to be in contact with her progeny
(actually my little sister tutored the first step
and im the clean-up hitter
...its my job to really tack it down)

this boy does go on

now that i'm practically old as my mom
i look forward to sharing thoughts with her

as much as i realize there is natural progression
in life - i hope i havent pissed away too much time
now that i have a growed up kid of my own
i all too much feel my mothers angst
at 10 - i'm too busy running around
as a teen - i'm too preoccupied with my pubic hair
in my 20's - wife and kids
in my 30's - divorced and fucked up
in my 40's - life begins to make sense
approaching my 50's - i'm realizing i've missed out
spending time with the coolest person i've ever met
---my mother---

be our moments together few or many
one's thing for sure
i'm dialed in, baby
i aint missing a single nuance
my mom knows ive always been her wing man
now that im more of her age
i believe she now leans on me
and that
asserts my belief that i am a good man

my most important aspiration
...to be a good man

boiled down
my mother deserves a medal
im looking forward to her emailed thots
i babble
lord knows i babble
my mother is "my" hero

bern shares
bv)

ps
i recently had a date with a lady
and just made freezer food for the first time in 1.5 years
huh ...i'm just saying