i'm in the middle of preparing
a real kick-ass home cooked meal

let me go back a ways
christmas past i got a huge stupid tip at work
so rather than dump the dough into the cash flow
i decided to get mice elf something special
with my new-found scratch

(4 years ago i got me a set of henkel knives)

finally, at long last
i got me a decent set of cookware
paderno - stainless steel
look fantastic - work like a charm
[my buddy kb steered me in the right direction]
i couldnt be happier (about pots i mean)

anyhoo

in the past
when i'm not "with" a woman
i have found the more i cook for "just me"
is directly proportional to my good self esteem
[thankfully as well how often i see the gym]

im not saying im out of the woods
im just saying
last week i believe i turned a corner
it was the first time in a year plus some
that i didnt resent having to going to work
[except for when my love-life is in the shitter
i really like being a waiter]
...and tonight im dining chez bern

rosemary lime zested roast potatoes
lobster and shallot stuffed mushroom caps
mustard basted and parmesan breaded
rack (easy bern, sorry ash ;) of lamb

oh and i'm chilling a nice
aussie "sure-as" i'm standing here

all my prep is done
finish and eat now - re-edit later

jsyk - i noshed on the narly end bits
whilst supping my gouda stuffed olive martini..."s"

MY OVEN SUCKS
its easily older than my ash
(bless her heart)
and not nearly as hot as my last girlfriend
[ww, t - and thats a fact, jack]

i'm done eating - for now
i really am spoiled as it pertains
to restaurant food
...cuz i can do it at home by mice elf
dining out pour moi
ce n'est pas le restaurant
its the company i have occasion to keep
and right now there is no "occasion"

wah wah baby suck
move on

its all good
i have leftovers in my fridge
for which some folk pay 50 bucks a plate

....i reckon
and i sure wish someday soon
she'll come a knockin
till then

"huh huh huhhh"
....thats the only french i know

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THIS JUST IN...

(via my s-in-l dd)

GOVERNMENT HEALTH WARNING:
DO NOT SWALLOW CHEWING GUM

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in the wee small hours of the morning
while the whole wide world is fast asleep
you lie awake and think about the girl
and never ever think of counting sheep

when your lonely heart has learned its lesson
youd be hers if only she would call
in the wee small hours of the morning
thats the time you miss her most of all



















if i could sleep standing up
...i'd be a well rested man

horizontally speaking
...i'm sleep deprived

huh

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jsyk

i was only just being facetious
about the american gladiators
...my brow wouldnt stoop that low

but low enough as to
rewish happiness in 2008












your welcome, dont mention it

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here's a few things

as much as i'm a lazy fuck
im not avoiding the gym cuz im lazy
...i'm avoiding "moving on"
better the calories you know
than the non-calories you dont
unfortunately given my subsiding metabolism
this frame of mind will lead
to an increasing frame

chris cooper is the new wilford brimley

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my new tv guilty pleasure:
...theyre baaah-ack



featuring the guy who got his ass kicked in rocky III















so dont call me monday nights - im busy
oh and...























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here we are again

the dawn of a new year
HNY to all btw
2008 ...8 ...good lord
it seems like yesterday that it was 2007
time sure does get to flying when yer pushing 50
(no surprise as 2007 only represents 2.083% of my life)

i wouldnt say 2-naught-naught-7 was a bust
nor would i say it was the best
i spent most of the year trying to adapt
and feeling sorry for mice elf
[i know i know - wah wah baby suck]
nonetheless - im still kicking and looking forward
to what the future holds
[hopefully that includes a
wonderful well-heeled woman
looking for me and nobody else but me]

i worked ny's eve ...as usual
[busy as shit and not especially lucrative]
anyhoo
coming home on the subway
about a half hour after HAPPY BLAH BLAH BLAH
[...i know its jaded, but its true]
((obscure 'christopher cross/'friends' reference))
anyhoo
an elderly couple enters the scene
they are flanking my left as im staring out the window
avoiding eye contact with the world
they chit chat then slip into a confortable silence
moments later
he kinda flicks me with his toque
and says "happy new year"
and she smiles the same sentiment
i reckon i am either sporting a city-size glower
or these folks are just plain nice
either/or - i take it for what it is, smile
and we make small talk for a few stops then part ways

...i think that was God telling me to get out of my head
and walk amongst the living
or at least be part of the walking wounded
[do chicks dig limps as much as scars? :) ]

earlier today (on the subway as well)
on the way to work i saw the following poem:

dialogue

once
when you turn your back
at the kitchen sink
you ask me what colour your eyes were

i stand very near to you,
and very still, not touching
or looking
for what must be a time
because after i answer you ask
what took so long?

entire geographies of sky between clouds
pool inside my head

to me no time has passed at all

by michael bradford

when i try to envisualize "us"
this is the how i hope to feel

eons in just one moment
and one moment for eons

until then
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