as we oft do, we had lunch on friday
my mother and her son, me



















for the life of me
i can not imagine anything
being more important than spending
the precious moments of my life
with my mother, my mom

oddly enough, as the end draws nigh
i think more of the now than the later
every nuance of my moms actions and words
entertains me and warms my heart

that warmth and these memories
will hopefully make sense at the end
when the end is at hand
i think the greatest justice
that could be done to my mom's life
is that i give to my kid what she gave to me


...strength and playfulness















...and thats already well in hand
my ash has her oma's particular sense of humour
and an unabiding sense of right

life goes on

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it's cold, uhgg

so i'm watching poker on tv
no limit texas hold em ...what else?!

the final table of a WPT event
there is only 3 players left
and jennifer tillies ...i mean titties ...i mean tilly
is one of them and she has pocket aces
our jennifer bets out too much and scares off
the other two players

at that point the host phil gordon
(the guy from celebrity poker) says...

"looks like jennifer's getting no action
on her big pair"















having the nuts of pocket pairs
i'd be scared too
[my head is swinging with inuendo]
calling a spade a spade i agree with phil ioo%
while i'm at it i'd like to say jennifers ahh umm tilly
is a GREAT pair of actresses


















"BOUND" being her tour de force
costarring gina gershon
gina being a gifted actress in her own right
and commands a certain je ne sais quoi ...grrrowl















anyhoo
what was i saying?

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i still dont have anything witty to say

but a thought occurred to me whence
i glanced my current background picture



















those were the days my friend
forts
mojos
girls have kudies
halloween apples have razors in 'em

anyhoo

this is my favourite picture of bern
first of all - im sporting a six pack
second - im looking up and smiling
[i had to smile,
my father took the picture - he was a real prick]

...that was prolly inappropriate
but i feel oddly disencumbered

im 48 and still dealing with fucking father issues
JEEZE LOUISE

anyhoo

that pic reminds me
that my life is ahead ...not behind

i have my ash
i have hope
i await just dessert
(maybe i'll have seconds)

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im still here
ive just had nothing to say

well ...maybe i am kinda pissed summer is done









oh ...i had a dream

i met my new woman
...my dream woman



















i may be feeling down but i'm not out
...the sun will come out tomorrow

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